Perhaps the ultimate conceit for a gay man is to imagine himself as one of those models in a Tom of Finland drawing. Not that it is wrong, far from it, but Tom of Finland's men are so "other-worldly" it is rare to encounter anyone who resembles the idiom. Still, I often dream of entering this world and after all these years of searching, I still get a charge out of looking at Touko Laaksonen's art.
Naturally it becomes something to emulate. As Jon Macy commented on an earlier post, Tom of Finland's models are happy, which I think is ultimately the appeal. As oppressed sexual minorities, we all dream of happiness, a happiness that is acceptable and accessible to everyone.
So this is a self portrait filtered through the Über-masculine. Looking back at a photo taken around the same time, it is perhaps not so fantastic, although I drew my hat much smaller than it really was. In fact, I have a big head and finding a used straw hat that actually fit was quite unusual. Okay, I really did cheat on the nose and the glasses.